Humor Me…

How long have I not blogged?

Too long for my taste…too much happened and I feel trapped inside.

Okay, let’s get this straight, there’s this guy from work, he is decent looking and I kinda like him. We pretty much talk about everything, friends, games and life. So a few of poly friends knows about it and our dear Daphne even send a confession sms to him for the other day.

The day after she sent the sms for me, I was very nervous on how he will treat me but by the end of the day, he treat me the same, a friend. He did not say a thing about the sms, ‘we’ sent to him or anything.

Today, I gave him a piece of my mind…letting him know my dealings with a certain someone, he is very encouraging at first but then he doesn’t feel that I should be worry about such silly things and live the life I want it to be, he asked me. I wanted to tell him, I want to and I want to start off by getting a relationship and if he allows me to but I didn’t. He told me there’s nothing to fear, they are just in my mind, I hope.

After I left for home, I told him, I need to make my way to Changi to keep a friend from going for a stupid cult gathering but I didn’t for I cannot protect her forever, so she will learn one day. So I go home. On my way home, I start to wonder why never of my attempt to get into a relationship fails on me. Then I told myself, I should be cursed by someone…it was something to make feel better…a joke to self…but I am starting to doubt so it is a joke now…

So humor me, someone just tell me, I will find true love…some day…one day…

Ravyn Lilith Wilson
Signing off~