Getting use…

Firstly I will like to apologize for not posting for so long, finally I got transfered back to Bishan, it was like going home to me. Still feeling lonely, still a little angsty about stuff but I am fine…I am getting use to things.

I am coping well with my loneliness, I gotten use to eating alone, doing very much of the things alone. Still there are times, I just can’t get rid of this certain feeling I had before but I will ignore it and live life the best I can. Well I am still looking for a job that is pet related, I tried the Zoo once, I will like to try again. I still get in contact with some old friends,  just a few of them but still enough to get me to stop thinking stupid things at times.

All in all I feel fine…just don’t count the times I get injury on a job…like today…a nice cut down my right wrist, guess what cut me? A sharp end of a cut off cable tie…I know -.-’ but it bleed quite bad but I am fine. Got cut many times but nothing serious, just a few blood show.

I have this friend at work of mine asking me, do I ever thought of wanting to get into a relationship…I actually sneered at her and said…I don’t it need, I have seen enough problematic relationship from my brothers and my friends. So why put me into such problem when I can be free form it. Well in truth, I did…but I am just scare…my heart was broken more than once and I am afriad it get broken again. I have no faith that I will find my Mr. Right.  I am not quite sure how to put this but I am actually both scare and hoping I get into a relationship. Still the percentage of fear is much more higher.

Recently I start to write a lot and read a lot, I got stuck on a Darren Shan series call the ‘Demonata Series’, I gave it 9 cat paws for storyline and 7 cat paws for gore. I am still waiting for like Book 7 and book 8 to be out in Singapore which is taking like aaaagggggggeeeeeeessssssss to be out.  I ever thought of purchasing it online but I have no credit card so too bad.

I started to write a fan fiction on the Demonata series, for the first time in my stories, I actually base a character on how I really look like. No slim, smart and beautiful girls…just plain old me. I was actually having fun writing the story, until I got stuck…should I turn this character from bad to good or remain her bad. Which is some times the problem I am facing…in life, I face the same problem should I be nice or should be selfish and all. I have been stuck on that story for a week or so now, my characters in the past have been from bad turn good, a good person playing bad so on as so fore, as cliche as you can think of. So I am really stuck on this…LOL I wonder why.

Singing off~
Ravyn Lilith Wilson